Doing the hardest thing "Keep living!"

When I first joined this group, I lost my husband. It has been over two years ago, I moved away from the area because it was too hard to move about my day without constant reminders. It was too hard to cope and was almost in a state of sadness. I moved away and took another job which just didn't seem to be what I thought it was going to be, so I left and made the choice to do some traveling. Something I have always wanted to do and just visit places I just never had the time for. So I did it, spent many hours just listening to music while enjoying the land. When I felt like just stopping to cry, walk and pray, I did it! I encountered many individuals who seem to always have something to share with me. I returned back to my home to find my grandmother, who I was fortunate to spend two weeks with before she passed on. For some reason I found myself in the same spot that I left. But along the way I learned I have the most dificult task when a loved ones journey concludes, we must continue on, we must keep living. How we choice to honor their lives is a journey in the continuation of the whole process called life. My life will always be touched by my loved ones today and tomorrow. I have the greatest with me no matter where I go, in my heart. I honor my beloved with every day and night where ever I walk. My heart has been touched with sadness, but it is brightened by all the wonderful times I shared with them. That is what I have choosen to use to help me cope with the pain of loss.