Just wanted a place to voice my feelings and my aggravations as i dont want to do it with my family, they are worried enough as it is.

Allright, this is getting old, i ended up having to call out from work tonight because to say that i feel like the stuff ground into the bottom of a shoe would be an understatement. My heart keeps racing and feeling like its going to just jump out of my chest while at the same time i feel like i have had the life sucked out of me, im exhausted but cant sleep because my hearts racing, its like a vicious cycle! I dont know if my thyroid is messing with my body or if i have caught some weird bug that dosent cause you to spike a fever. All i know is that i am not myself and i am praying that wednesday gets here faster so that i can get this stinking thing out and start trying to go back to a normal life (key word here trying). Im tired of being a disapointment to my coworkers even though i try my best to pull my own weight, im tired of the sympathetic looks from friends, and the attempts at hiding fear i see in my families eyes.   I just want to be a normal 28 year old wife, and daughter again.  Is that to much to ask for?