as a mom of 3 and having my own disablity . it does get stressful. noah my lovley son has ocd, anxity angery issues he is very intense, my husband has bipolor sometimes having to be the strong one and keep a level head and my feeling to myself gets very hard.. i figure if i start writing it might help

my name is shannon i am40 years old and i have panick disordor coused by a broken hip that never heeled. so i am a stay at home mom. the presurse of having 3 kids  and the last year of our lives have been devistating, we lost our home in the only home town we lived in, you would yhink that would be the worst, we were homless for a month and our landlord took everything we owned. we have a lawyer but he will not complie i feel very violated. we lost everything we ever owend. airlooms all of my kids stuff. wich makes it harder is that my son noah has ocd, anxity and is in specail ed. my husband has bipolor , i am greatful for the people that have givin us stuff but still after 9 months we barly have anything. but i have to be the strong one, if i show any emotion it set my son off so i am always on gaurd.

as a mom i feel that i have failed i can not replace anything we lost. i use to work my husband has always been disabled so the money we have goes to bills ,rent and thats it.with christmas comming i do not know what to do. we have no decorations and my childern would like to have the stuff they lost. for kids that is there security.

it is tuff, sometimes i am tired of being strong but noah watchs my ever move and his anger and ocd i have to be very structured and then rich who is on meds still has his issues when he goes in to his zone.

but as a mom i need to let them know that we are ok. abby at 14 this is hard. she is awy from her friends and she lost the things that kept her happy, her cell phone, her ipod with her radio and her lap top. jaime noahs twin she handels it ok but she is like me she does not say much.

i am very spiritual and a very positive person but it gets lonly and i get scared and i feel like i let them down