didn't ask for

Diagnosed Feburary 2003 with stage 3.8 breast cancer and was given 6-12 months to live if not able to do chemotherapy and radiation. From that day on my life has changed from bad to worse. Right now I wish that I didn't do the treatment because I put my family through you know what. My husband hates me and my children well, I don't know how they feel. Everything went downhill from financial to family closeness. My husbands blames me for everything and I wish that it never happened to me. Been over 3 years now and things are getting worse everyday. I have tried to be strong for myself and especialy my children but it's not working. He is trying really hard to make me feel as quilty as ever and he reminds me that his life ruined. Please help me. what can I do? I wish that things were back to normal. But, what is normal at this point on. He wants me to go back to work so he can get what he wants and not realizing that I am not the same person I used to be. Feel different and not having the strength to do anything. i wish that I could pay off my home and don't worry about it anymore. But, I just thank God that I am still here for my children. God Bless all the womens who have the cancer. I am just angry as anyone with it.

Hi, I was diagnosed with Stage 3c uterine cancer, spread to the lymph nodes in the vena cava.  I have been through the radiation so far, and am waiting for the pap test on tues.  only thing left is my va jj lol.  My husbands family has all passed from cancer, everyone of them.  I was the last person in the world you would thnk would ever get cancer.  I don't eat meat at all, I was so shocked when the worthless dr. told me I had cancer when the day before he told me I didn't.  My husband has been like not even there for me.  I am lucky I have a sister in Arizona that calls me everyday.  I have been so close to ending my life, yesterday my husband was sitting in a chair with sun glasses on and I asked him why and he said I have a brain tumor.  It hurt me so bad and then my son brought down pizza and I told them that I don't eat very much anymore and my husband said we know you have cancer.  He is very rude and when I feel bad he makes me feel worse.  I got one of the real winners along with a real winner dr. that I would like to take to court, but no lawyer will take my case in this neighborhood.  I will have another pet scan on Feb. 4 to see if it has spread.  I am so frightened.  I hope you can get well and stay well.  The radiation really made me sick, my family dr. wants me to have chemo he said it would increase my chances.  I am going to wait to decide on that till after the scan.  In the meantime I am doing B17 and staying away from sugar as it feeds cancer and I am mixing the 100 percent maple syrup with the baking soda, trying anything new to see if it helps.  Stay strong.