Understanding

I hurt my upper back at work a few months ago.  Have been in constant pain ever since.  Dealing with the work injury clinic and my employer has been a challenge in itself, but what is far worse is dealing with friends and co workers who just don't understand.

Friends keep prodding me to go out and do things that I just can't do.   They say things like: Why don't you just do some yoga?  or   Thats what pain pills are for.   The best one was my friend who after my telling her how awful I felt she bragged about how she fell off a horse once and hurt her back but kept riding.

I'm beginning to get bitter and angry and very reclusive.  I've literally had to hold my mouth shut for fear I was going to let loose on one of them.  They mean well, I know.

How do I get them to understand that this is not some little minor ache or pain?   It's chronic and it runs my life. My life has been reduced to this:  I work and then I come home and take a pain pill and I sleep.  My days off, I'm in my pajamas until 5 or 6pm and then I force myself to go out and do something.   I can't do hobbies that I once enjoyed.  Can't drive far.  Can't go to the gym. Can't take long walks anymore.   But I try to tell people this and they just don't get it.

My house is a mess because cleaning is so difficult.   I would have thought that maybe one of them, just one of them would offer to come and help me.

I am so hurt and alone right now.   Definitely sinking into depression.