M E M B E R P R O F I L E
fairbanks28
every day is a good day
I'm a 28 year old professional male. I have been sober for over 4 years and am a recovering alcoholic and cocaine addict. Being sober is the most important thing in my life. In order to get to this place I went to both a short and long term rehab program that helped equip me with the tools I needed to maintain a sober way of life.
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Addiction and Recovery: The Journey
This blog talks about the day to day of being sober. It will deal with the things that sobriety has enabled me to do, the types of things that help me stay sober and the situations that confront me that challenge sobriety what I've learned by staying clean and sober through them.'
Welcome to 2009! I know I'm a few days late in saying hey but such is life. Five years ago around this time I was nearing the end of my using... after a few troublesome starts to recovery, some forces, some voluntary, I found myself hallucinating, terrifi
As I come up on my five year anniversary of sobriety I am struck by how Homer detailed in such awesome lyricism what it is like to be lost and then claw your way home.
The Sirens, according to Circe, in Homer's epic poem are these beautiful voices that s
When I read articles, like the one in the New York Times this weekend, about treatment for addiction it really pisses me off. The main thrust of this particular piece was to place blame on treatment programs for the failure of addicts and alcoholics in th
Going against every ounce of human instinct, alcoholism and drug addiction has me attracted to the very things that will kill me. To say the impulse to pick up what amounts to a loaded gun and actually want to put it in my mouth and pull the trigger is ba
Someone in the group was sharing about having lost someone to a drug overdose and he, in turn, overdosed himself. While the thoughts and feelings associated with the death of a loved one and his own near death experience were with him daily, it was around
The mantra of "I will stay sober no matter what" is the most important message I give myself whenever I am struggling with something. No matter what happens, I am committed to staying sober, and that knowledge is empowering. What that means for me is this
Being home for the holidays is like returning to the scene of the crime. This is where it all began. The dynamics forged through years of positive and negative reinforcement ellicit some of the most disturbing and dangerous emotions for addicts and alcoho
Seriously... do it. You will thank yourself once it is over. Start with just a few minutes concentrating on breathing in and out. Have you ever noticed the calming effect that mindless tasks produce? Inadvertant meditation I would imagine.
My mind races.
I have a voice inside my head that sounds a lot like me. The voice tells me to do whatever I feel like doing and damn the consequences. That voice is my disease.
Last night sitting on the couch the voice spoke to me telling me to stay up late watching tv
Anything we put before our sobriety we will lose. This is a difficult axiom for us to grasp, primarily because we are riddled with guilt over neglecting our family, friends and loved ones. How are we to repair the damage if we are putting recovery above t
